選擇 只是強者虛構來欺騙弱者的幻影

I hope I can laugh again
There is somehting called "Happiness", which I haven't seen her for a while.
I thought I should be able to see her easily, yet, 
it's getting harder and harder for me to see her, not even a glance
Would you please tell her that I miss her terribly if you happen to see her, for I desperately need her


I think I am facing a dilemma here.  I wanna quit but I can't.  
I've been trying, however, the result wasn't seem to be acknowledged.
I used to be confident that I can handle this, as things turned out, I guess I am wrong 


True, you cannot always have things to go as the way you wish.
Knowing the fact that people will always see what you've did wrong only makes me feel more depressed.


One of my dear friends passed by my workplace the other day
Saddly, I was busy as hell that I didn't say much, though I haven't seen her for a while
During my break time, I called her and we chatted happily.
To my surprise, she said that I've became "haggard".


Honestly, I've never thought this "haggard" word would become an adjective to describe me
Incontrovertibly, I've been treating my body badly.
I have to admit this is not what I expect
Things have gone out of my control, I though I could manage everything, my study, my work, my money
I was frustrated by my failure.


I shall just see how it goes
Try to hang on there as long as I could...................