You’ll never enjoy your life,
你永遠沒有辦法活出自己
living inside the box
若是你一直待在自己的小世界
You’re so afraid of taking chances,
你這麼害怕冒險，
how you gonna reach the top?
無人街道上 只有路燈是我的觀眾
我恣意的揮灑著 青春
猛然的 轉彎
我轉向 寧靜的郊區
不時的蟬叫及蛙鳴聲
交織出浩大的自然交響曲
翠綠的田埂 寂靜的小屋 空氣裡 滿是清新
多們曠麗的景象
被風吹著的感覺 我享受著這份清閒
十幾年來去 溪川依然灌溉著田地
不論時空背景如何變換
滋養了大地 豐富了生命
走過繁華 走過滄桑
不論時光更迭
越過了地平線 截然不同的景象
一條線分隔了淳樸和現實 單純以及複雜
儘管是燈光如此耀人 建築如此聳立
這轉變的過程中 我們又失去了什麼?
心中油然升起了一絲感嘆
童年的回憶此時又俏皮的跑出來搗亂
我也已經走過了十幾年的歲月了
看著鏡子裡稚氣依然的臉龐 還長著一兩根青澀鬍子
彷彿告訴著我 該負起成人的責任了
"勸君莫惜金縷衣 勸君惜取少年時"
又有多少個年少輕狂真的聽進去了?
曾幾何時 驕傲揮霍青春的我 開始害怕時光的流失
恐懼未來的不確定
我笑著別過頭去 看看錶 已是午夜時分
就像溪川 參天古木 走過歲月 走過人情冷暖
我們都依然走著 走向那不可知的道路
Yes, here I am, finally want to type out how I felt and what I did recently.
I have been suffering fatigue, both physically and mentally.
最近很容易疲倦，永遠也睡不飽的感覺
十二點才下班，又能期待我多早睡
三點才睡覺似乎已經變成了我的daily routine
皮膚狀況越來越差
想提早睡卻又發現東西還沒準備好
but this is the life I chose, isn't it?
Now that I chose to have two part time jobs, I can't really complained bout it.
Afterall, I made this decision myself.
I will have to get over with it, and hope I can work until the end of this year.
I am a person who always looks back, well, that's a habit that I can't change.
我喜歡回頭看我以前寫的網誌，看我當時在想什麼
然後就看了一篇我三年前寫的網誌
當時我專三，正在猶豫應該留在台灣唸書還是去英國唸書
而當初我台灣的學校考慮的是＂台科大＂而不是高科大 where I study now
當時我捨不得朋友，想演畢業公演，因此猶豫不決
But it turned out to be desperately disappointed
Things went utterly opposite to what I want it to go.
有的時候 會不會覺得人生很妙
你考慮的再多，再未雨綢繆， 最後的結果跟你當初設想的卻是截然不同
所謂的"計畫趕不上變化" 就是如此吧!
最後雖然真的還是因為兵役的問題我留在台灣
但當初我所放不下的"朋友"
如今有聯絡的又剩幾個了?
我所期望的畢業公演
為了畢業公演鬧的烏煙瘴氣 這我到現在都還記憶猶新
又有多少價值? 美好的回憶嗎？ I do now know the answer
之後，因為家人反對，所以我念了高科大
現在又要因為家人反對，可能研究所也得留高雄
so what should I do?
＂後悔＂
我的人生就是不斷的後悔
回顧過去
後悔當初沒毅然決然的轉學
後悔當初沒有好好把握每個相處的機會
後悔當初沒有堅持去台北念書
後悔當初沒有申請去英國唸半個學期
後悔後悔後悔
最近聽到好多人都去國外唸書了～
我心中的羨慕跟忌妒程度，連我自己都不敢相信
I am already 21. Time flies, but there are still so many things I want to do
I am afraid that if I don't do it now, I might not have any chance
Unlimited desire, limited time, limited money
Sigh, I don't know. I feel so lost now
I hate things have to go like this
I don't think I would ever have the chance to go aborad again, at least not in this near future
By and large, I still have many goals waiting for me to accomplish.
"Impossible is nothing" I doubt
Seriously, my schedule has currently been tied up with work
Since when have I became a workaholic? I know I never am, and will never be.
Haha, I just cannot fight that slackness........
I really need to get out and get some fresh air.
I know I should not complain, afterall, , I am rather lucky, compared with other people who are still searching for jobs
How bout some shopping?? haha
It IS really the fastest way to release one's pressure
The joy is beyond words.
Humm, sound like I am a shopaholic
It is pathetic that our desire is like a bottomless hole.
Why do we work so hard to strive for money? For all those things we crave?
I still remember a passage that my tacher asked me to memorize back to my five-year college
"It is not money that make us greedy. WE are greedy, so we want money!!"
I guess somehow it reflects the truth.
Well, what I am trying to say here is that earning money is really time consuming and tiring. Honestly!!
All those pressure, and so much detail to memorize........ Stressful indeed, it's killing me
However, looking at the bright side, I still think it's quite worhwhile.
Cos you cannot expect to learn everything in school, you need to get out of there and see how big the world is.
Ok, time to hit the sack
Got work to do tmr.
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